I remember the days I used to feel I hanged out with celebs.. or at least I would feel like that when I met my husband. It was great fun and really I felt I had a pretty cool life. I think I now have what’s known as Imposter Syndrome. On a superficial level, I know I’m a mum (I have not had a full night out since I met my husband, I have not slept alone in my bed since my husband thought it would be a good idea to have kids, along with my clothes smelling of left overs, a body that changed forever and a very messy kitchen!), but sometimes – okay, frequently – I just don’t feel like admitting I miss my old life.
I feel like a fake mum, going through the motions, failing at it when others are nailing it. Now, now what if my stumbling blocks were a sign that I was loving my life but I found it rather hard compared to my old day job. As I glace across the room at a play centre or at school drop off I feel I might be playing a role, instead of living it.
I’ drawing breath to tell you I actually love my life even if i complain and maybe all the details are not perfectly layed out… some days are mayhem! I’m about to send my youngest to school and i know i may have a guilty sign of relief but deep down I will miss those a-ha-ha days and remember those sunny days when we could just play on the beach without any worry.
So to the mums who almost feel like the Mum Police will be knocking on your door to check that school lunchbox and how its been constructed (they would be dressed perfectly and hair in a bun) Don’t even think of using an excuse because the truth is we need a day when we just copy a celeb recipe and feel like your winning with a trio of perfectly made sandwiches There are fleeting moments when I feel like a real mum and i know you may not have enough sleep, sticky clothes or hair not brushed but the truth is we feel like we are celebs as supermoms.
From their birth, we magical became the fairy godmother and the only celeb in their lives when if we needed to, download the parenting guide just to find out how the other mums cope.
So all those times we put extra hours in to bake, do crafts and just be there its so worth it. Yet. I live in hope for that day comes when i hear the words I love you mum” without any rythm or reason.
To watch mums handle their toddler’s tantrums with patience and grace, while I scroll through social media and see perfection. I know we are all doing it tough and balancing the world of motherhood and being a good mom or mum we may judge each other but let’s start to say good job and well done to the mothers we see and think it looks easy or she is having a bad day- I just want to let you know that it doesn’t matter, if you have a bad day, you’re not alone.
Let’s stick together and maybe we can change the face of motherhood- I embrace the mums who feel they are fakes and put on the smile and wake up each morning to face the celebrity status of their motherhood. Your time will come and your a star to your kids!